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Saturday, April 28th, 2001
8:08 pm	it's been too long Yo, I haven't written in forever. A lot has happened since I last wrote. Eric and I broke up. Which has been kinda hard for him, but I think I'm dealing with it really well. We went up to Seattle yesterday. It was such a good day. I went up early in the afternoon so I could interview matt nathanson (a rock star from san francisco) and he bought me lunch and was so friendly. Then I saw him do a show in a record store on Capitol Hill, which was close to Urban Outfitters, so I went there and splurged with a gift certificate my sis got me for my birthday. Then, we went to go see modest mouse ROCK OUT, it was such a friggin' good show. I had a great time and got to dance to some good rawk music. Then, I came home and the crew had a half rack waiting, so we got shitty and talked about proper rock star behavior (the importance of putting your foot on the moniter and utilizing your bass as a phallic symbol, etc.) and then Nate started acting like a rock star in a hotel room and started wrestling and puring water all over the place. It was a fun day/night. It was geat to be in a city, while I was in Urban Outfitters this little indie rock boy asked me about my onelinedrawing shirt. I've never met a random person who new about jonah, it made me happy. It is good to get out of the evergreen bubble every once in awhile (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, April 16th, 2001
3:50 pm	easter sunday Yesterday I had one of the best days ever. I ate mushrooms with Eric, Phill, and Dan. We played in the field and played with watercolors, and Kendra painted me (both on her paper and on my face) and I think Phill is one of the coolest people ever, definately in the ranks of a buddha boy. He has a presence that I have never witnessed in anyone else before, and it is a joy to spend time with him, because his nature is gentle and laid back that you take time to appreciate the small things when you're with him (even when you're not tripping). It was such a delightful day, I felt so good about myself and felt all happy about the fact that other people exist around me, and I am so lucky to be a part of their lives. I wish I could have just a small dose of that feeling all the time. You have so much confidence, and such an appreciation of things when you actually realize how lovely everything around you is, and how important it is for you to be an active participant in the world. Oh, how I love mushrooms. that was my second wonderful easter in a row, last year I was building a house in Tijuana. I definately have to keep up the tradition of doing something fulfilling on the day the lord hath risen. I'll write more later, but I can't think of anything that can top my shroom experience, so I'm going to end now. (Comment on this)
Monday, April 9th, 2001
10:01 pm	sushi party Tonight we had a sushi party and eric and I made so much sushi that we couldn't eat it all so we gave it to anyone who walked by. I was so inspired that I wrote my column about sushi and alf. Both are truly wonderful things. Dude- I am so upset, I set up a show for this awesome rocker dude to play at Evergreen, and I just realized he's going to be here the night I'm in Seattle seeing modest mouse...arrrgghhh. He's doing a show in a record store in Seattle in the afternoon, so I'm gonna try to catch him there....so frustrating. I am not a social butterfly. It just so happens that the two cool things going down in April have to be on the same night. Go figure.... I have had a stressful weekend, balanced with drunkeness. First, I had a one page seminar paper due tommorow, but there weren't enough copies of the book that we were supposed to write about, and the lucky few who actually got the book were being shady as fuck about lending it out, so I spent the whole day trying to get ahold of the book- through a kind souls or through overnight shipping, but to no avail. Then I tried to find some of the stories that are compiled in the book, but they were nowhere to be found. Oh yeah, AND, I wrote to my proffesor about my quandry and he was a TOTAL ASSHOLE about, and replied with this evil e-mail...and I know I'm going to hat ehim and I'm in his seminar, and I had a huge conversation with someone who just got out of his class, and all this dude could say about the prof. was that he is basically full of shit, not to mention full of himself. So anyway, I finally got ahold of the book, because Andy is the s-h-i-t, and he let me borrow his copy, even though I already paid $40 for the book to ship within two days. AAArrrghhh...but it's Done Now, so all is well. Oh yeah, the drunkeness- here's a fun game for you guys it's called "century club" and basically you take a hundred shots of beer in one hundred minutes. I can't believe I lasted. Small victories really are what keep me going through this thing we call life. Adam has friends in town who are hitch hiking across the country, is everyone but me doing that? I'm jealous....when do I get to be a freebird? eh? when is it my turn? Oh yeah- I tried to get a job today, andI already got called to set up an interview at a cafe, where I will be the prestigious dishwasher. Everyone laughs at my prospective job, but it doesn't sound too bad to me...I don't have to talk to anyone, and repitive manual labor is such a good way to meditate. There's a whole form of yoga based on that kind of shit. Anyway, I need money so I can have a place to live and things to eat this summer. Good-night (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 7th, 2001
12:21 pm	that's some fucked up shit I think it's funny when people use the words "shit" and "fuck" in the same sentence. Like, "that shit's fucked up", or just simply "fuck shit up". If you think about it like I am now, which is literally, it's alll very funny, fucked up shit. Yeah, anyway.....It's been to long since I've written. Last night Eric and I celebrated six months together. We made really good food and Nate and Adam got us wine on their beer run and it was a pleasant evening- except for the fact that I had to say good-bye to Paul, who is hovering over the country somewhere right now. Paul is off on an adventure and he's going on the road...I'll missmiss him. What else..I don't know, I'll write more later Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: madonna-dress you up in my love (Comment on this)
Friday, March 30th, 2001
1:13 pm	spring break Woo-Hoo Vancouver! I was going to try to explain my whole adventure ther, but there is just too much. I'd rather the various spring break stories trickle out at more approprite times. All I can say is the only thing I drank over the four days was water and alcohol, and the ratio was about 5 to 1 (in the alcohol's favor). I saw the biggest pot heads I now actually TURN DOWN weed and try to give it away because there was too much of it. We spent two nights squatting in rainy public parks and walking around city streets with fat backpacker backpacks. And...I endured the pain and got a little red apple tattooed to my ankle. Ahhh....at the beach bonfire-binge drinking party that night I was like "what the fuck? I have a piece of fruit tatooed to my leg!" but I love it, it is red and shiny.Everything about the trip was a total adventure and memory in the making. I can't wait to go back. Current Mood: happy Current Music: new modest mouse c.d.- cos tum concern (Comment on this)
Friday, March 23rd, 2001
5:04 pm	beautiful olympia sunshine I have had such a wonderful day that I have to write about it before it ends. I woke up early (8:00 in the friggin' morning) to go to a dr.'s appt. but upon arrival found out that the clinician decided to call in sick, so I was awake and downtown, with nuthin' to o, so I cashed my birthday money so I could finance my binge drinking in Vancouver, and proceeded to be served by a way to perky barista at a coffee house. So I got on the bus, cos I saw my bus and was in some big hurry for no particular reason, and i got to Hollywood Video, where I promised Eric I would rent movies and it was closed of course, so I kiled time in Value Village and got a shirt with a picture of the world on it, and a mug that says "smile god loves you" (small sidenote: this mug brought back memories of all the little kid church songs I was indoctrinated with at my crazy catholic gradeschool, St. Joseph's) and an Olympia Beer mug, which is quite the collectors item.... Anyway, this isn't the wonder ful stuff....here's the wonderful stuff.... I came home and resisted waking my boy up with kisses for as long as possible, but then finally broke, and sang the afore mentioned church songs until he ggot out of bed and we were on the bus to this AWESOME breakfast place in town, by the way i'm already happy because it is s u n n y and one of the most beautiful days ever. So we get to town and decide to spend the day there, and we ate and spent forever in the toy store, and I got a cool new toy, and Eric was sneaky and bought my favorite cigs while I wasn't looking...so we took our new acquisitions (toy and cigarettes) up to the capital building, stopping on the way to get a sandwich and drinks at this awesome deli near the capitol. And we ate in the sun and walked around and looked at mountains and flowers and blooming trees and clear sunny skies, and discovered a whole new pretty part of Oly. We also discovered how nice spring is, or at least, we rediscovered it-which is fun to do every year. Then, I came home to find the best ever b-day cards from two of the best ever friends (bish and joy) and they made me so happy, and I missed them in a really good, happy, I-am-loved way. I am tired now, for I was up late last nigth having interesting conversations and watching a sad movie....so I'm gonna watch a Gwenyth Paltrow movie and veg. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 22nd, 2001
10:32 pm	memories memories tonight but this time good ones. And out of nowhere I remembered this time that I was in a car after building a house. And the boy in the car was acting like a boy for the first time, and he was doing that because he needed to talk but didn't know what to say. And then I said something and he said something and it went on like that and the conversation was exactly what we needed to say. and it strikes me that that's pretty much what the big whoop-de-doo is. I mean, that's what we do while we exist. We are with people, and sometimes we are with them at the right time, and sometimes that right time is as long as a conversation and sometimes that time is as long as your first love or as long as it takes to sober up. And sometimes it's a second and it's just you with yourself at the right time (and maybe a cigarette to share it with). Why can't I figure that out more often? Why can't I be happy with just being. But I think Thoreau was full of shit sometimes, because if you don't clinge to those moments when existing seemed right, and everything came together, then why keep existing? And how do you know that it's all worth it? And what's around to make you smile? and...what's the point of anything if you can't attach more to it...I wouldn't smile at songs or faces or pictures or books if they didn't bring more than just the contained words or images to mind. I probably wouldn't keep them around for long, and I definately wouldn't love them. I wonder if you need to keep things around for them to affirm your existance or if it's just random encounters with random people that may be good or may be great. I don't want to think about that now. I'd rather be in love. Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: heartt cooks brain- modest mouse (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 15th, 2001
8:03 pm	loong day...and it just turned night Wow, I am burnt as Jimall would say.....I have been hiding the desire to cry for too long, and I got an excuse to do so today, so- I did. And my eyes feel dry, but I feel better...like Ani "I'm [writing] now because my tear ducts are too tired, and my mind is disconnected but my heart is wired" ani is so good..."oh how I miss substituting the conclusion of a confrontation with a kiss, and oh how I miss walking up to the edge and jumping in, like I feel the future on your skin" Okay, I didn't want to quote Ani....I wanted to get my mind all messy and spread all over a cyber page.... Let's see, why did I want to cry...I am fucked up...I've lost people and fallen in love with their memories instead the actual people I have loved, and nostalgia used to be an old buddy that only showed up when I was drunk, but now it a jheova's witness, and it knows I'm home...and it won't go away...even if I moon it from the window. AND...I have these ideas that are stuck in my head and have been put there by the people who used to be there but are now memories, and they have become...let's call them "standards" for now. And I want everyone to be them...I want a firey dragon Bish and a dorky professor Daniel, and a look-at-her-look-look-! Megan,and ass-fah-say audrey, and this doesn't make sense to anyone but me and my memories right now...so I'm sorry if you feel excluded. AND...I don't know what to do, except be frustrated, and then I cry, but only after repressing it for long enough to put myself in a permanant pms mood and then, only when I have tangible evidence, or a sorta good reason, will I let it all out. Enough, I don't know what is wrong with me..... I don't know why I refuse to get over/move on with so many things......I am like fat tissue and I absorb things and it takes for ever to get it out of your system so you have to get someone to pee in a cup for you at a job interview. But, Bish is smart, and she knows what's up and we know that boys are stupid sometimes and everyone, even us, have flaws and at this time you probably feel excluded again, but that's okay because so do my memories.....I digress........ Hmmmm...I am drained again. Thank god school is over and I was just handed a 40 so my evening is looking up...all I need is a Muppet movie to come home to (I wish you hadn't brought that up, Eric) Carlo...if you ever read this, I downloaded all the songs you put on my tape and listen to them all the time, and I forgot to tell you that my friend Adam listened to your tapes and he was commenting on how good they were, and I told him he probably had to date you to get one, so if you're interested in a really sweet, buddha faced, amish looking boy.......I think I've got just the one!!! Wow, my roomate gets all sweet valley girl when her friend is over, it bahathers me Current Mood: rejuvenated Current Music: ANI ANI ANI (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 13th, 2001
12:33 pm	fake bologna sandwich for a lunch break in between classes that I don't feel like going to, but don't feel like not going to either. I just want this quarter to be over. It has become tiresome, and I need newness. I don't have much more to say than that: I need newness. My life is sort of in a rut right now, and everything seems to comfortable, and almost to easy.... BLAH.... Katie-I really hope you are able to come visit this summer, I miss old friends and want to cook all of them food and play a big game of scrabble. Current Mood: blank Current Music: pavement-spit on a stranger (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 10th, 2001
2:55 pm	underwear, fishies, and a bowl Yesterday was such a great day. Eric and I went to go return a sweater at the mall and I bought new underwear so that I don't have to do my laundry for five more days, and we got a popcorn/cookie dough bowl, and then........we got fishies!!! They are so cute and they make little fish noises and mine has a fancy tail and her name is Ella.....Eric's has buggy eyes and his name is Cosmis Charlie. I love my fish they are so entertaining. Let's see...not much else is going on, Paul is leaving soon, and I am sad.....And the new L&O editor on the newspaper is a fucking asshole and if he keeps giving me shit I'm not going to write for them anymore, I don't really feel like I'm a part of the newspaper crew,a nd I don't really want to be, so I don't know if I have a future there. Dude, in case you guys didn't know...the Toy Story movies are so fucking good. I never woulda thought....... Current Mood: happy Current Music: (positive negative)-modest mouse (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 7th, 2001
11:56 pm	crash and burn I was having such a lovely day today, it was beautiful weather and class went fast and I was happy and saw smiling faces everywhere.......But then...I decided to be recreational. I decided to take recreation to an extreme and figured today would be a good day to learn how to olie. I realized the error of my ways when I was off the skateboard and bleeding on the grond. Now my right arm is about as functional as Bob Dole's and I am frustrated and gimpy.I was being a sulky bitch, but then I went to Paul's and ran in to a fun girl who made me promise not to give up skatebording and not to let boys teach me how to do it. I'll probably keep one of those promises. She was nice, and got me on a skateboard again, and helped me learn. There are so many nice people, it's no wonder I feel like I'm spreading myself thin sometimes. Like today, while I was at Paul's I know he's going through a lot of not-fun shit, and I could've spent the whole night there talking to him, but I knew pot and eric and a good movie were waiting for me...and I also knew that a bunch of other cool people are all over and I could get to know them.....but I don't do that very often and I'm sensitive to sulking (mine and others) and I feel like I'm a bad friend, girlfriend, whatever. Oh well, I can only do what I'm capable, and probably should only do what I want...I'm not everyone's therapist, I just seem to fill that role frequently. Tommorow I will spend QT with Paul, because we're celebrating how bad we'll be embarressed in front of the class during our mock trial tommorow. Current Mood: wounded Current Music: pavement, because of my closeness to the local pavement (Comment on this)
12:07 am	"together we make the perfectly balanced person" Well, I got out of bed today...that was good...so I was proud of myself already, right from the get-go. I've been to all my classes this week, and most of them have begun with me there. I swear to god, I used to be on time to things, and it was a rare occasion that I would lose something. But now I am a total mess and it doesn't even bother me....at least I know I'm getting some results from going to a hippie school. ......here are some interesting highlights of my day: 1. It looks like Eric and I are going to live in a house together and pay dirt for rent and get jobs and be Oly locals...I think my parents are cool with this, and I'm really happy to have a plan......so-everyone has to visit and I have to make money to pay rent and hopefully do some travelling, and I'm moving in with a boyfriend, which is a wild and crazy thing. 2. I burnt a built to spill and ween c.d. 3. I bought SILVERWARE and a BOWL, it is fun to buy "domestics" with the boy of your dreams 4. Eric and I began a beer bottle cap mosaic, it's a charming still life of an Olympia beer can.....updates will be posted in the coming weeks 5. I talked to Daniel and I think we were giving eachother a little too much shit and I ended up giving him shit about how we broke up and he (jokingly) said some things that might have made me mad, but didn't because of our past together...and I'm debating about whether I should post the natural progression of this thought process on the internet...I don't know, here's the abridged version.... I think that you can't fully get over someone or move on until you have tangible closure, in my case it's an amazing new relationship, and in ways I think it wasn't until recently when I realized just how much I love Eric and can't live without him that I truly and completely got over Daniel. And that's one of the most amazing things Eric could do for me, because I'm free of the burden of that nostalgic, perfect, first love idea that has haunted me. I think maybe Daniel hasn't gotten to that point and he says those things because he wants to pretend that I don't mean anything to him, or he doesn't miss things, but I don't know...this is becoming unabridged...but I know I can only write this now because when I write his name it doesn't conjure up feelings of loss, only feelings of learning. I think the mixture of the epiphanies described above and the FUCKING BEAUTIFUL weather that is causing me to constantly love Eric more and more....thus the cycle begins again..... I hope not though. Today Daniel said that he often asks himself, rhetorically, why we broke up. I don't know, I think it was because we were to young, and because I never told him things I could tell Eric and relationships are different when you get older, and we were never too good and growing up together...and maybe first loves are too intense, or ours was...I don't know, and I'm going to leave it mostly that way because even though it's over I'm thankful for what it was and why it wasn't and I learn everyday from that year in my life and that's why I have so much faith in the beautiful boy I get to wake up with everyday. Everything always works out in the end, I've never seen that statement proven wrong. good-night. Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: built to spill- keep it like a secret (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 6th, 2001
12:02 am	spontaniety Today we decided to take a random road trip to Seattle and we did it stoner stylie, hot boxing a vw bus all the way up there and breaking in a newly acquired hooka on the way back. We fucked around in some parts of Seattle that I hadn't spent much time in and then came home, but I was sososo hungry so boy and I got dropped off in town and went to Mini Saigon (the BEST thai food restaraunt) and got fake meat food and then we walked to the grocery store and got vegan apple pie and vanilla ice cream (tofutti is the s-h-i-t) and a brownie. The makings for a lovely evening- we warmed up the pie in the oven, added ice cream and sat down to a game of scrabble, in which I FINALLY beat eric (by somewhere between 4 and 54 points, that one's still debatable). I turned in my huge fuckmonkey law project and my professor was like "where's the rest of it" and I ran away before he could expect a response, sometimes it's harder to bullshit than it is to do the actual work. Luckily, my seminar leader is just about as apathetic as I am, and he won't take any credits away for laziness. So I'm making up for my academic delinquincy and I'm going to read the rest of my book tonight, 30 more pages never seemed so long, but I 've gone this far...... Oh I'm so sorry, and I know you guys don't want to hear cute stories about my boyfriend, and sis- if you're out ther, I'm really sorry for that twenty minutes I spent on th ephone with you, describing how cute Eric looks in white-leg-show-offy-shorts and mismatched socks and sticky uppy hair, but it's my journal, and I think those of you who love me enough to read it will allow me to casually mention how cute eric is when he where's black and how it nearly brought tears to my eyes when he asked if we could by dandruff flavored shampoo the next time we go shopping. What a cutie, I love to show him off, I'm so proud of bagging such a babe..... Okay, I'm through being smittin'.... if I can figure this out bish should be on my friends page, and you should all go read her journal and give her some love Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: ben harper (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 4th, 2001
11:53 pm	12:29 I slept for about 12 hours last night to make up for the 20+ hours I was awake on Friday. I went to see Rainier Maria last night, only I didn't get to see them because I was at the mercy of the bus system, but I got to see a really good band from San Fransisco called "the mates of state" good synthesizer/drum fusion.....very cool- they rocked the little loft that is the aerospace. I definately need to go to more shows, because there is good music around here, and I get to see new faces off c ampus, which is quite a relief. The pleasurable recurring theme of my day is a shocking amount of love for eric , so beautiful. I love it when you fall in love all over again Current Mood: blah Current Music: ani (Comment on this)
Friday, March 2nd, 2001
12:40 pm	catching up Wow, I haven't done this in a long time, it's mostly because I avoid being in my room because I can't stand my roomate. What's new.....80s arena rock is awesome (nothing new), there was an earthquake and PAul and I got out of this HUGE law project that we were procrastinating over for so long. I got out of two days of classes as well. I heart natural disasters. Ummmm, we had cock rock drinking night the other night and I'm can't stop the rock.....I'm listening to white snake right now. That's pretty much it, I guess that's the other reason I haven't written...not much to write about. BOy is being funny and pretending to be rromate, he's admiring himself in the mirror and blow drying his hair...... go watch a mockumentary, trekies, tie-died, or spinal tap will do Current Mood: happy Current Music: white snake- the eye of the tiger (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 22nd, 2001
9:13 pm	meloncollie and the evergreen state college.... TOnight I am sad and nostalgic and missing old friends, and it just so happens that none of them are picking up their phones right now, and I feel so distant and in a weird way, so unnatural, even though that might not make sense. I am tired of being so far away from everything and being surrounded by egos and drunken dirty inconsiderate people. I would really like to 16 again tonight. I never thought I'd say that, and maybe I don't really mean it.... I remember being so awkward and even more funny looking than I am now, but looking back, I realize that the "decisions" I made then were totally not decisions, because I never had any control over the fact that I'm here. And now that I don't know how to make decisions, I am scared that I'll make the wrong ones, or that I already have. I guess it's all just decieving and pointless rhetoric that doesn't really have any bearing on anything. Because I guess I don't have much control over anything anyways. And we're all indoctrinated in some way and none of us really have freedoms because we've never been taught how to create them.... Oh my, it's enough to make anyone melancholy. So I guess I don't feel as bad.....and a freshly hair-cutted boy just walked in my door and I'm beggining to realize that maybe things aren't so bad for now. Current Mood: blah Current Music: tinfoil-rainer maria (Comment on this)
Monday, February 19th, 2001
6:53 pm	weekend getaway I just got back from Seattle. Eric and I spent two days there. We saw Janeane Garofalo be cute and funny four rows in front of us and stayed in a hotel and ordered room service and drank wine and we were fancy kids. And we went to a really good vegan restaraunt and did touristy things like go to the top of the space needle and steal seattle shot glasses from cheesy souveneir shops. It was a good time, but Eric was sick, and I got sick and now we're both sick. Oh well, it gives us eachother to take care of. And I don't mind lying around and eating soup and being lazy. Current Mood: sick Current Music: tracy chapman (Comment on this)
Friday, February 16th, 2001
10:43 pm	eric Tonight eric is wearing a long sleeved. soft. black. shirt. He is wearing it because it is warm and good for playing in the snow and trying to sled down hills on a snow covered and hidden golf course. He is wearing it because it was easy to find in his mismatched drawers that hide my favorite clothes after I've left them there for so long that I've forgotten that they existed. He is wearing it and it is making me mismatched and so so in love. Tonight eric is leading me to listening to love songs and daydreaming and smilingsmilingsmiling. I hope everyone had a good valentine's day. I got the best of both worlds (audrey is laughing because I said that): A cute valentine and sweet&sour tofu. Needless to say, I had a pleasant evening. I found out today that Janeane Garofalo is "doing something" after the show on Sunday, so I don't get to interview her, but I still get to see her and spend two days in Seattle with boy, eating at good vegan restaraunts and being fancy in a hotel :) It has been a good week. The snow stuck and turned my world into one big pillow and we made a snowman that was bigger than us and then destroyed it and fell all over the place to make snow angels. And I went to my first hip hop show, but I think it might have been my last as well. Current Mood: smitten Current Music: built to spill-car (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 10th, 2001
10:28 pm	why why does beer put so much on your mind and make you listen to a random lauryn hill song over and over again? Do you ever get over the people you love or haved loved? That's what I'm wondering about, I don't think you can. And I think that's good and bad. But it makes you miss things, and changes in people make you seem like a different person and sometimes I think that I liked older versions of me better than more recent ones. I don't know, i shouldn't like thinking about this stuff so much. I often realize that I'm too lost in my disjointed mind to pay attention to the wonderful things around me. Maybe everything isn't so wonderful. I guess I wouldn't know. Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: lauryn hill- ex-factor (Comment on this)
12:02 am	long day Maybe it was because the cookies didn't work out, or maybe it was because it was lonely in my bed, or maybe it was kurt vonnegut's fault, but I couldn't sleep last night and was awake for the six hours that I could've been asleep. Until I started to nod off around eight in the morning when I was supposed to get up so I would make it in time for my job interview at the newspaper. So I got out of bed, which is a lot easier to do in the morning when you don't have to wake up first, and I skated (all by myself) over to the CPJ and had a good interview and a potentially not-so-good skills test. I'll hear about the job by monday, but honestly, I don't care much if I get it or not. I might be better of unemployed than underpaid. So then I went to Eric's, hoping he was the cure for my insomnia, and he was- for a few hours. But then we got in this huge dramatic exchange and feelings were hurt and hearts tramppled and I retreated to Paul's for awhile and then Eric and I patched things up enough so that we could smoke the weed and go see Pee Wee's Big Adventure at the Capitol Theatre (where I'm seeing The Roots in 5 days!!). It was a blast and now I'm tired, but I'm going to go over to Paul's because he called and I feel like it's a bit to early to go to bed on a Saturday night. Current Mood: blah Current Music: =weezer= (Comment on this)